Dreaming???

*Beware...this is really just ramblings of a not so rested mind. It's weird and strange and probably not important to anyone but myself but it has been on my mind ALL day!!! With no adults in the house today to talk to I get to get it out here.....

Have you ever had one of those dreams when you wake up & think to yourself...'wow? I was dreaming?' Sometimes I love them & sometimes I hate them. I had another one of those last night...they are always so weird. This one was really strange! Jer & I were trying to rent our old apartment from when we first got married but they wanted us to sign a lease for 2 years & we didn't think that was a good idea so we left. When we got outside the air was so bad there wasn't enough oxygen for everyone to breathe so they wanted people to stay inside as much as possible. Also the air was really bad for your skin but if you wore latex gloves then you would be fine, but there was a shortage of the gloves so you couldn't get them just anywhere for just anything...that's the weird part!! So Jer & I needed some gloves to go somewhere so we went to this building and took some gloves off this desk but we were caught so we took off running & these 2 guards were chasing me but I managed to run them in a circle & BAM! They ran into each other & knocked each other out, much like a cartoon. After they were out I went into the building I was running too. I had no idea where I was or what room I was going to but I somehow knew exactly where I was going...does that make any sense??? I was in a hospital & in the room I found was my dad!! He was getting packed up to come home. You can't imagine how excited I was to see him! I of course gave him a HUGE hug & then he told me the doctors couldn't help with anything & he was not going to live much longer. I then started bawling hysterically & he held me saying it was going to be okay & then he started saying John & Paul and telling me something about the names that I don't remember. Then I woke up. Dreams are so weird!!! But I believe sometimes there is so much more to them than just a dream. Who knows...maybe one of those names is my baby boy's name & my dad knows I've been struggling with it so he's helping me out. The first time I remember dreaming about him was a couple months after he died and he came to tell me he had seen my baby & she was beautiful. It was so real & I could still feel his arms hugging me when I woke up...I honestly believe he comes to visit me when I'm sleeping & I'm sure he does the same with all my family. I am so thankful for the knowledge I have that when you die that's not the end & you will see your loved ones again...Thanks for listening to my ramblings today. I woke up with no one to talk to today, as all the adults in the house had early morning things they had to get to and I was really bothered & didn't want to forget anything. You get to be the lucky ones in that case!! Thanks again & hopefully there isn't some dream analyst out there that is going to tell me I'm messed up for having this dream.